Feb 18 – Why does Cobs Bread have to taste so good? It is Family Day here in Ontario, and while I’m not off from work today, pretty much everything is closed, so there were limited breakfast options. I ended up getting myself and my wife some scones and her a drink from Starbucks. Overall, I know I didn’t eat as good as I was intending. I tried to make sure to have a large serving of sugar snap peas and made sure to put spinach on my pepperoni pizza at Score in the evening. I need to do better if I’m going to stay under 280 pounds. That’s right, I weighed myself this morning and was under 280!

Feb 19 – Woke up this morning feeling super down. My brain is very unhappy today. I still struggle with depression and anxiety, and when I have days like this, I either want to eat all the junk food or like this morning, I want to eat nothing. I now have two weeks worth of calories at 2200 calories a day that I’ve banked for the future. I still have yet to have a day where I go over my calorie limit. Sometimes, I end up feeling pretty hungry at bedtime due to how calorie dense some food is, and how little it fills up my belly.

Feb 20 – I got a good amount of sleep, had a breakfast of mini-wheats and coca-cola and tried to get used to my new glasses. I spent some time studying for my SCRUM exam that I want to take at the end of this month and didn’t do well. I need to spend more time studying. We had ice cream in the evening from Marble Slab, and while it was good, I forgot how expensive it is both in calories and in money. I used up pretty much all of my calories for the day and didn’t even have a real supper. I’m not complaining as I didn’t go to bed hungry thanks in large part I’m assuming to my beef jerky.

Feb 21 – Woke up and weighed myself in anticipation for tomorrow’s official weigh in and I’m doing okay. I am still under 280 but I was hoping to see a continued drop since my last unofficial weigh in on Monday. I have this idea that I’ll be a certain weight by the end of February, but with seven more days, I’m not sure if I’ll make it. The whole thing is pretty silly since the primary focus was never about weight loss.

Feb 22 – I was so focused on work today, but in the evening, as a nice celebration of my wife starting her reading week, we went to get a Beaver Tail. It was so good, and not as expensive in terms of calories as I was expecting. I thought it was going to be 500+ but my cinnamon and sugar one was under 400. Overall, it was an okay day, but I did use up far more calories than I was intending. I still struggle with not beating myself up over using all of my calories.

Feb 23 – Even on the weekend, the puppy wakes up at seven and needs out, and while Annie offered last night to do the morning shift, I know that the puppy would wake me up and there is no way I’d go back to sleep, so I might as well get up and let her have the extra sleep. I weighed myself this morning and I feel bummed. While I’m still under 280, I was really hoping to get down to 275 by the end of February. I have been so focused on work, Annie and the dog that I really haven’t been eating as well as I should be. I feel very bloated this morning. I now have between 12 and 15 days of banked calories available.