So, I am currently going through a bit of a crisis of faith in terms of where I’m living and what I’m doing with my life. I am trying to figure out what I’m supposed to be doing. I’ve been sitting on the idea of working towards finding my purpose in life for years now.
I have gotten a tattoo reminding me to focus on finding my purpose in life. I have taken it as my moniker on Twitter (@findpurpose) and I continue to feel like I need to make some time to do some self-exploration.
With my career at rocketgenius working with them on Gravity Forms, I have some flexibility in terms of where I’m working for. With access to the Internet thanks to the cellular network, and the potential of purchasing a laptop, I could easily go and work out of the company office in the U.S. and visit my co-workers for a month or two. I could go back out West in Canada, visit some friends, and maybe family (if my brother ends up out there) and sort of be taken back. I could visit my dad out East, and I am already planning on staying with my family in December and maybe even being in Kingston for January as well.
My plan is to detach myself from pretty much everything but my day job. I’ll work during the day and then on evenings and weekends, I can hopefully focus on self-exploration.
During Christmas, I can take some time to feel how I fit in with my family. I can continue to build a relationship with Annie and see where that heads. I can focus on my hobbies, and think about what I want from my future. I have so many potential avenues of creativity that I would like to explore, and I feel like getting myself outside of my comfort zone might help re-light that fire of passion in my life.
I have been very lucky in life so far, and almost all of my best memories are focused on my interactions with other people at conferences and events, and I think that finding ways to integrate that back into my life would help me feel more fulfilled in my life.
I think my job would be happy to see me do this as well, since I could promote the amazing Gravity Forms, and continue to use my creativity to expand their documentation, marketing and support.
Of course, I worry that I’ll never feel completely settled, but I feel like given the right experiences and the right situations, I can reclaim some of the energy, focus, and persistence that I had back when I first started as a web worker.
My time with Bloggy Network was the best time of my life, and I don’t want to spend the rest of it trying to reclaim that feeling. I want to move forward in my life while finding out what my purpose is, and feeling like I’m working towards it. If I am supposed to live my life for the next fifty years, I want to do it with a feeling like I’m doing what is right for me, surrounded by the right people, in the right place.
I feel like my entire generation, and potentially those generations before and after mine will have a hard time dealing with the exact same thing I am going through now.