So today I decided to go to the 30th Annual Multicultural Community Festival in Brockville. I bought all of my camera equipment in hopes of taking some nice pictures, and after three hours, and three hundred pictures, I have to admit, I’m super frustrated.
Not having the right camera equipment for the conditions I was going to be in: low light, no flash, fast movement, and not having the skill required to create art and capture the energy of the moment, basically made me want to throw my camera against the arena floor and walk out.
I usually enjoy photography, but for some reason today, I just want to give up on it. I wasn’t able to come out of the event with pictures that made me feel happy, and that I had captured the energy of the event.
Even buying better equipment, I know it will only help a little. My cousin, Mark, and my old co-worker, Jeremy, both have more artistic skill with their cameras, which only helps fuel my frustration.
Sometimes, I just don’t feel like I excel at anything and I’m reminded of what I heard from an expert in my field, “why do people waste so much time, trying to be good at things they have no skill or talent in?” I’m paraphrasing of course, but the message was that we should focus on the things we are good at, and accept that we can’t be good at everything we are interested in.
I just don’t know what to do then because I have no passion left for the things I’m good at, and I’m frustrated with the things I’m passionate about.